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18 November 2020 @ 09:29 pm

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wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
13 March 2019 @ 09:22 pm

Hey gorgeous peeps!

I decided to make this post (which will always remain at the top of my journal) for those of you who ever get curious about when the heck I'm done writing a chapter or what projects I work on. Maybe it'll help keep me focused. XD


THE LATEST:

*22nd December
I was really busy with my trip to Korea earlier in the month (T1ST0RY = amaze) but I'm back now. I've been working on TBMS because I really need to finish it and leave my babies in peace lol. And holy lord, after several months I opened up my notebook and saw the TBMS hurricane that awaits me... There are so many crossed-out sections and asterisks and arrows and 'move this bubble of writing three paragraphs up' and 'refer to the middle of the notebook coz I ran out of space here' etc. It's like my own Da Vinci code!! Serves me right hahah.

tbmswhathaveidone


*27th November

May Phillip Hughes, the 25 year-old cricketer (who would have been 26 on Sunday) who passed away today, rest in peace. May Sean Abbott, the 22 year-old who delivered the now fatal throw, find peace. I was working on ATL when the news broke that Phil hadn't survived his sporting injury, and now all that is left is a lump in my throat. It's utterly tragic. You don't tend to associate certain sports with death -- certainly not one of the "gentlemen's" sports. My thoughts are with his team and his family.



*10th November
Working on ATL. I'm being greedy and switching between the next two chapters with my writing time.




I just realised I have hit 500+ people having friended this journal. Um...wow. Considering mypolicy is never to lock my main fics under pretty much any circumstance, I am so touched by 500+ caring enough to friend away anyway. I won't lie, I teared up just an incy-wincy bit. Thank you all so much from the bottom of my little heart. <3

 
 
wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
27 September 2014 @ 11:31 am
Title: Across the Line
Author: wild_terrain
Across the Line - full banner 512x448

Chapter: [9 / ?]
Rating: M
Genre: AU (flangst, romance)
Summary: When you're a kid, no one tells you how hard it is to grow up; how easy it is to forget who you are. But if you don't know who you are anymore, how are you supposed to deal with all the lines?
Hate/Love    Real/Fake    Hero/Enemy    Lust/Madness    Lost/Found    Past/Future
It's a strange new world across the line, but two men are going to have to cross it if they ever hope to find their answers—and each other.



A/N: Here we are again! The chapter I put my blood, sweat, tears, and maybe even snot into! (I was sick, not crying. ;)



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wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)

It’s pretty funny that I feel so shy even on my own journal, but I am…so…er, hi if you are reading this! ^^

What is this post about you ask? Two things, really. A generic apology for being a slob, and then some internal sobbing. More or less. So let’s crack on!

The apology: If I’ve ever accidentally forgotten to reply to something, or taken weeks to do so, I mean absolutely no offence. THEY  SAY THE STATE OF YOUR BEDROOM REFLECTS THE STATE OF YOUR MIND… And let me tell you, both of mine are an absolute chaotic mess! I can’t find the right vocab as often as I can’t find the right socks.  And when it comes to monitoring this journal when I’m not posting, and replying to inquiries and comments, I am just as disastrous! If I’ve ever accidentally forgotten to reply to something, or taken weeks to do so, I mean absolutely no offence. I’m not conceited, I'm just ridiculously shy even in my own journal, which really doesn’t help either. So anyone who comments or sends me PMs, you are legends and I love you even if I’ve failed to reply. T_T



Well, phew, now that that’s off my chest…

You know what else really sucks? Writing! Writing is so freakin’ hard! And the pain of it all is that that’s what makes it so fulfilling. If you’re spending hours sobbing over this one sentence that you just can’t seem to get right….and then it finally clicks, it’s like HALLELUJAH! My life is complete!!

There was a hilarious tweet going around called: “The Creative Process” which listed these seven stages of any project: 1. This is awesome / 2. This is tricky / 3. This is shit / 4. I am shit / 5. Everything I do is shit / 6. AARRGGHH / 7. Booze

How true is that! Judging from this scale, I was floating around stage six for a while until I decided to do something about it. YES! I told my socially anxious mind to shut up for one darn moment, long enough to join a writers’ centre. Hell yeh, girlfriend, I did. And so far it has been an awesome experience. I’m learning great tips from published writers and amateurs alike.

More than ever, I’m learning not to give up. Trying to distract my mind from self-sabotaging criticism when I write is like trying to distract a lion from its prey, but I’m trying. I’m pushing through all the doubts and frustration to finish The Beacon; My Siren, and then once that’s done, I hope to lay Across The Line out and find a structure that helps the pacing. This is a battle with my head and I feel frustrated that the collateral damage has been slow updates for everyone still reading. There’s nothing much I can do in that regard but try my best to wade through the murky waters until that glorious HALLELUJAH moment. And that moment shall come, dear people. It shall, I tell you! Thank you for waiting in the mean time. =)

You know what allllllllso sucks? I love to write but that doesn’t automatically make me a good writer. I may spend the vast majority of any day in a day dream, but that doesn’t mean I am able to communicate those ideas coherently with anyone who reads what I write.

To help summarise my general state, I call upon my lovely assistant Jung Yunho…

What I see in my mind is this:
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What it feels like when it’s put to paper:



How I feel afterwards:
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(Thank you, Yunho, my dear creative comrade. You get me. XD)

I don't consider myself a 'good writer' yet. Not on a scale of Yunho-rhino to Actual-rhino. That’s okay though; it means there is something to work towards, something to inspire me to keep writing when all I want to do sometimes is curl up in a corner and cry. Stephen King says to write with the door closed (both literally and mentally), but I’ve never been able to properly close the door to my own internal bullying. But hey, I’m in therapy for my anxiety problems, so baby steps! =P

For my own sake more than anything, I just want to say that this journal is my way of practicing writing. (Coz y'all realise this is basically just me playing mind games for my own benefit. If I lessen the importance in a disclaimer, I subconciously put less pressure on myself to be perfect--which means less mind blocks and sobbing. Shh, just nod and humour me.) And this journal is also my way of of trying out different genres and different techniques and learning what not to do. When I re-read the stories I have written here, it can be awkward sometimes because there are so many ‘what not to dos’ in them. (Wow, I sell myself so well, right!! Oh my. XD) I don’t think the ideas in them are bad, just the ways they are communicated. During those moments, the only thing stopping me from blocking the entire journal is the memory that the people who have read them, or are currently reading them, still find joy with them and that is all that really matters, right? (Preach it, gurlfriend!) I write because I love to write and if other people can forget their lives for even ten minutes when reading what I’ve blurted onto paper, that is a really lovely thing. I’m truly so thankful for everyone who has come to this page and given my stories a try. I still get such kind comments and encouragement from you guys. Legends, I tell you! =)

I suppose all I really wanted to say here was thank you to everyone, as always. I’m trying my best to grow as a writer and learn how to write better things. In fact, I try so hard sometimes, my mind turns to fuzz as if I have run a mental marathon and then fallen down in complete exhaustion. This is why it can take me a while between updates to post new chapters; either I’m mentally exhausted, attending the odd writing class to expand my knowledge, or bullying myself with self-sabotaging, unhelpful criticism. But I will update as soon as I can! ^^

I'm blabbering on and on here only because I like to be honest with myself, and this journal has always had a sort of diary element to it. Indulge me, my darlings. I like to talk to myself.

Yeh... I know...



I'm not a pretentious person, I honestly just love talking to myself. It helps me organise my brain. And I've probably written this kind of entry several times already in the past. In fact I know I have. But this time I had Yunho-Rhino! Mmhmmm. My 'Wah wah, I'm such a slow writer, forgive me for eternity because I can't forgive myself' sobbing may be a broken record, but no one ever gets sick of the the Yunho-Rhino, right? If nothing else, may that have made you laugh. And at least my bellyaching shows commitment to the arts, yeh? Yeh!

Alright, well that's me done.


(Get it? JJ edited himself.... So, you know... That needs to be me.... Hehe.. Ha.)

 
 
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wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
12 January 2014 @ 02:26 pm
Title: Across the Line
Author: wild_terrain
Across the Line - full banner 512x448

Chapter: [8.75 / ?]
Rating: M
Genre: AU (flangst, romance)
Summary: When you're a kid, no one tells you how hard it is to grow up; how easy it is to forget who you are. But if you don't know who you are anymore, how are you supposed to deal with all the lines?
Hate/Love    Real/Fake    Hero/Enemy    Lust/Madness    Lost/Found    Past/Future
It's a strange new world across the line, but two men are going to have to cross it if they ever hope to find their answers—and each other.



A/N: I'm back! WHOO HOO! I'd do a cartwheel if I had any coordination. Here is the last part of this chapter.



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Current Music: Jungle - Emma Louise [YH POV]
 
 
 
wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
19 November 2013 @ 07:54 pm
Title: Across the Line
Author: wild_terrain
Across the Line - full banner 512x448

Chapter: [8.5 / ?]
Rating: M
Genre: AU (flangst, romance)
Summary: When you're a kid, no one tells you how hard it is to grow up; how easy it is to forget who you are. But if you don't know who you are anymore, how are you supposed to deal with all the lines?
Hate/Love    Real/Fake    Hero/Enemy    Lust/Madness    Lost/Found    Past/Future
It's a strange new world across the line, but two men are going to have to cross it if they ever hope to find their answers—and each other.



A/N: Second part of chapter eight. It's so long there will be a third too... Of course. lol



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Current Music: Mylo Xyloto - Coldplay [Yunho]
 
 
wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
11 November 2013 @ 11:57 pm
Title: Across the Line
Author: wild_terrain
Across the Line - full banner 512x448

Chapter: [8 / ?]
Rating: M
Genre: AU (flangst, romance)
Summary: When you're a kid, no one tells you how hard it is to grow up; how easy it is to forget who you are. But if you don't know who you are anymore, how are you supposed to deal with all the lines?
Hate/Love    Real/Fake    Hero/Enemy    Lust/Madness    Lost/Found    Past/Future
It's a strange new world across the line, but two men are going to have to cross it if they ever hope to find their answers—and each other.



A/N: This chapter ended up being too big to post as one, so here is the first bit. ^^



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Current Music: Hi-5 -- Dream On [Little Jaejoong POV]
 
 
wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
20 October 2013 @ 02:29 pm
Don't you just love those fantastic real life fandom moments that collide with the fanfiction in your head? I just heard about Changmin playing tennis in that Cool Kiz on the Block variety show he is in! And being utterly atrocious at it!


WATCH CHANGMIN'S TENNIS FAILS:




I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING!! Changmin, your beautiful fails... He's so tall and he still can't hit the ball.

What beautiful timing this all is! I was starting to write Seunghyun and Jay's disastrous tennis practice session in ATL (I don't consider that a spoiler =P) when I realised this had come out. What beautiful visuals for me HAHA! Oh this is just too good. I keep alternating between laughing my ASS off and just grinning from ear to ear. Something tells me the next chapter of ATL is going to be out so much faster now LOL!

I can't wait to watch the full segment of Changmin's fails when it is out. >D



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Changmin, you are a gift from heaven. XDD
 
 
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wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
18 October 2013 @ 03:39 am
Title: Across the Line
Author: wild_terrain
Across the Line - full banner 512x448

Chapter: [7 / ?]
Rating: M
Genre: AU (flangst, romance)
Summary: When you're a kid, no one tells you how hard it is to grow up; how easy it is to forget who you are. But if you don't know who you are anymore, how are you supposed to deal with all the lines?
Hate/Love    Real/Fake    Hero/Enemy    Lust/Madness    Lost/Found    Past/Future
It's a strange new world across the line, but two men are going to have to cross it if they ever hope to find their answers—and each other.



A/N: Real life delayed this chapter a bit but I hope you enjoy it now.



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Current Music: Rev It Up - B*Witched
 
 
wild_terrain (i.e: Fi_chan)
25 September 2013 @ 10:41 pm
Title: Across the Line
Author: wild_terrain
Across the Line - full banner 512x448

Chapter: [6 / ?]
Rating: M
Genre: AU (flangst, romance)
Summary: When you're a kid, no one tells you how hard it is to grow up; how easy it is to forget who you are. But if you don't know who you are anymore, how are you supposed to deal with all the lines?
Hate/Love    Real/Fake    Hero/Enemy    Lust/Madness    Lost/Found    Past/Future
It's a strange new world across the line, but two men are going to have to cross it if they ever hope to find their answers—and each other.



A/N: YunJae talking alert! I tried to stop them but they just wouldn't shut up! =P




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Current Music: Help I’m Alive – Metric [JJ’s POV] // Gotcha – Jessica Mauboy [Cheeky YH]